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Thursday, May 31, 2012

EVICTION

Ferocious machines, roaring giants
Metal to metal, stone on stone
Hooded men shouting commands
of sedentary gods perched
at air-cooled havens in capitals
away from smoke soot
deafening noise parching heat

River’s flow smells extinction,
spawning the big dam

Hamlets awaiting submergence
shudder at pounding thuds
of each massive strokes
ripping the horizon.

Deserted villages fall mute
at silent tears of its people
on exodus, casting back
that lingering last look

Prophetic cats, the see-all mystics -
they have vanished.
In the mountains they feel free,
fleeing flood to come.

A lone buffalo, lame and infirm,
left behind, grazes fields forlorn
blinking primordial eyes
registering nothing.

Fledglings, nestling in bushes
watch uneasy activities around
unnatural, boding ill:
fear death by water.

Huts, awaiting razing,
pine for knocking at the doors
announcing the elders to enter
and children to ‘behave’.

Fields, wild with weeds
mourn departed tiny feet
trampling its dawn and dusk:
playground at their behest.

Unseen ancestral spirits,
blessing their brood,
sob unheard in the shades, downcast:
they cannot leave.

Where have they gone, the evicted?
Did they simply vanish?
Are they brewing storms that
one day would storm capitals?

What befell the lass, fearing loss
of young love, dared death?
Did she find her heart’s content
singing  in some strange land?

Where would they go, the forefathers?
Into oblivion? Come shimmering
above vast expanse of the flood
on the day for the dead?*

*(‘Day for the dead’ is a weak translation for Sanskrit ‘Shraadham’, which implies the day of rituals to commemorate the dead ancestors and give them yearly homage)

Tuesday, May 29, 2012

WARHORSES



SPENT WARHORSES
Sedentary rebels
Turbid iconoclasts
Cyber space ET


NEW HEROES
On retreat, off street to SEZ
An obsolete myth-
Angry young men.

APOCALYPSE
Streets on fire
Waiting for avatar braving
Depraved new world

Friday, May 18, 2012

MEMOIRS OF THE ILL-BEGOTTEN: A PREFACE


MEMOIRS OF THE ILL-BEGOTTEN: A PREFACE

Memoirs-

revelations treading the thin line
between the narcissistic
and the confessional

Look not the same herein-

The equations-
they all went wrong
from the very beginning.

Conceived unawares,
conceived unwanted,
his birth was not festive.

No contended maternal sigh
following soul-ripping pain
attended his nativity.

No beaming mother
lulled him to sleep.

No one celebrated
his toddling escapades.

No firm paternal grip
walked him his first steps

He had no father figure
he could set out searching

He had no moments to cherish
in play field or in school classes
wherein they found him
a whipping boy, a joke.



His youth-

Look not for the ideal
out of an outcast
haunted by dark shadows
of sneering societal malice.

It's a crooked living
where brute force rules
brute ways, remorseless,
a living answerable to none.

His family-

His attempt to tie up
the broken threads
in the safe anonymity
of some alien land.

Doomed by seeds of
dissipation running
deeper in his veins
beyond his control.

His death-

Was it revenge on god-knows-who?
On those ever-haunting shadows?
Was it sheer despair?
Was it philosophical:
his self inflicted death?

Who would tell?
That frozen woman in the corner
ogling vacant
into future unknown?

Those pathetic urchins beside her
gazing from face to face
of those around?

Those onlookers unconcerned
or oozing belated sympathy?

But then, why insist that a death,
being culmination of a life,
should make sense
where life failed to do so?

Saturday, May 12, 2012

SOMETHING LIKE HAIKU

SOMETHING LIKE HAIKU

by Fazal Rahman on Thursday, May 10, 2012 at 11:35am ·

1.
NARCISSUS GOES FACEBOOK
Drained riverbeds.
Narcissus
goes facebook.

2.
NATIVITY
Starless east
The Magi retrace steps,
And the Child unborn

3.
AN ARACHNOPHOEBE IN SEVEN SLEEPERS’ DEN
An arachnophoebe in seven sleepers’ den
Insomniac
Two centuries.

4.
Demented street-walker
Humming lullabies
Unburied foetus all ears
(This one is particularly close to my heart since this is from one of my worst nightmares. The street-walker actually roamed my hometown some years back. It was rumored that she was being continuously abused, even at that advanced age and in that emaciated form, on a daily basis by nocturnal nobodys and she endured it with chilling indifference: 'like a log' was the term. One of the most heart breaking sights, she at times used to cuddle with a small piece of log, mumbling coarse indiscriminate tunes. She was living her own Comala)

5.
Computerate granny
mouse-tells Cinderella
in 3-D

6.
A day for sleep-walkers:
At traffic post
Cop hangs himself

7.
WAR-ZONE PIETA
Pandemonium of riots,
Dissipated child in lap
War-zone Pieta.

8.
PAEDOPHILE AT SUPERMARKET
Panick’d little eyes search “mom…!”
A foxy smile helps out “back home...”
It’s game time.
xxxx
(‘Game’ may also suggest predator’s prey or kill)

9.
MY OWN PEDRO PARAMO
In the wee hours, post-passions,
stalkers from past dark,
ghosts of my Comala.

10.
Dream team seraphim
Safe under lids
Day break martyrs.

11.
DOOMSDAY FOR STRAY DOGS

stray dogs teeming;
hired hunters on the prowl:

parody of genocide.

12.
STREET ARTIST BOWS OUT
at street corner, off a tight rope,
a mangled heap below:
call it a day.

13.
SUBURBAN DAWNS
Riding stealthy bikes,
Finance men grin at tin doors
dark-skinned, dagger-eyed.
(In Malabar area ‘micro-finance’ business is almost completely monopolized by men hailing from Tamil Nadu. They are identified with certain traits:  they are distinctly dark-skinned, they are total strangers to locals except their clients, they have a way of coming surreptitiously the first thing in the morning allowing no time for clients to leave home, they use almost inaudible new generation bikes, and, above all, they are menacing.)


14.
PEASANT SUICIDES

a life-time toil in soil wasted;
Sisyphus under tin roof
resigns.

15.
MOURNING DEAD RIVER

Slimy ravines mourn
Sandy days of spry streams
Fish for fowl ‘n drink for flora.

16.

HUNGER-STRUCK!
Vital stats demand
Wasted ramp girl done with.
Tasteless hunger.



17.
NOCTURNAL SHADOWS

psychedelic night
moonbeams phantasmagoric
shadows of lost loves

18.
NO WOMEN’S LAND
strutting mein kampf look
phallic orgiastic
wombless bastards

19.
HIRED KILLERS
hell-bent crusaders
of fast buck theology
possessed short-time thugs

20.
THE MACHO
flaunting icy looks,                                                                          
feigning tough mute bravado
creature of nowhere

21.
In limbo no one dies
living sans hopes memories
ogling hells black holes

22.
BIRTHDAY BOY

When born protesting
ripped off maternal heaven
honey you made me

(April 7- birthday of my first-born)

23.
Deluge rising up
Inside Noah’s ark, what’s up but
Decameron Tales!

24.
THE NYMPHS ARE DEPARTING WITHOUT ADIEU!
Poor maids have twin lives:
They dream Cinderella
And live Esmeralda*.

*(Esmeralda, the doomed gypsy girl in Victor Hugo's ‘The Hunchback of Notre dam’ falls desperately for the young Captain Phoebes , who, in turn, is only interested in her beauty, not even caring to memorize her name and quite nonchalantly misnomers her 'Similar’.)


25.
Fear is a grownups’ disease.
They don’t freeze at anything:
the little champs.

26.
MY AUTHORS SMELL KEROSENE
Down memory lane
they all smell kerosene:
my great authors.

(Before electricity came, kerosene lamps were used- Fazal))

27.
‘Eternal’ is fake.
Life sans death is no life;
‘In time’ is the thing.

28.
SUMMER RAINS ARE FOR THATCHED ROOFS
Wanna know summer rain?
Live under a thatched roof
where it leaks in profusely.

29.

Sunstroke April-
no time for wet dreams
Time for water dreams

A whiff of cold wind
soft-spoken herald-
It's raining in the plains

First rain drizzles
sweeps soon to downpour
It's chorus hymeneal.

Rain-drenched verdure
shuddering, still, dripping.
Willingly forced.

30.
SEED ROOTS BRANCHES

Seed-
A tree in conception divine
birds beasts await
Nativity

Roots
holy questers
Of ancestral blessings
In earth’s bowels

Branches
star-bent dreamers
of horizons mapped
by children to come

31
Crab on beach
short trip to sea-gull’s beak
a haiku on sand


32
FIRST SUMMER RAIN
First summer rain beats
parched earth sweats inferno.
Purgatory now!

Rain moths aplenty,
dwarfish dinosaurs on wall
mime Jurassic days

33.
Drowned kid’s funeral
Stilled in prime, silent tears
A lone petal afloat

34.
AMNESIC
Groping dark alleys
of long-forsaken boarding.

Tenant with no key

35.
Flames of funeral pyre
decrypt horoscopes
encrypted in skull

Friday, May 11, 2012

BLOOD OF THE POET

BLOOD OF THE POET

by Fazal Rahman on Saturday, May 12, 2012 at 12:21pm ·


Behind the poet is a failed son
Who, chasing wild dreams, forgets filial bond

Numbers do come*, but with no parental nod.
The muse is no family friend till you court success.

Rude is fatherly ways with a dreamy brat,
and mother’s heart, soft so-ever, it takes the brunt.

Times would change, and with it, tastes,
dreams would change, soft shades going harsh.

At war with a world you wanted to change:
an outsider at home, never at peace with any.

Saddest times for her, seeing two cold poles apart:
father and son-  pillars of her life.

Now, years going decades, you look behind,
your veins calm as slime, you, the ultimate ‘normal’

You see her pains, all too late,
though tombstones do not cry loud

You feel her pain, all too clear
though umbilical cord doesn’t remain

It runs your veins, her life blood,
your way back home, your only home

Every verse you write is in pain
a retribution, a homage

Behind every poem there is an image:
a sobbing mother, a storm of blessings.

*(”I lisped in numbers, for the numbers came.”- Alexander Pope.)

THE VANISHING ACT

THE VANISHING ACT

by Fazal Rahman on Tuesday, May 8, 2012 at 4:20pm ·


the vanishing act:
we all perform it
one way or another
one time or another

some of those
who were with you
sometime before
have already done it

some of them
might turn up one day
for theirs is no last exit
but a shelter quest.

they may be roaming
labyrinth of some metros
subsuming themselves
in its whirlwind

they may be lingering at
some fast fading living
you left behind
hunting chimeras new

they may be chasing
ever eluding dreams
in lands alien to them
one day to return home

some of those
are buried in dark
fathomless dungeons
of an amnesic mind

some of these one day
might smile at you
an unidentified ghost
stalking from misty past

and yet one day
life shall verily play
on you, with an epitaph:
“exit, pursued by a bear!”*

*(The famous way in which Shakespeare, in an utterly inexplicable single stroke, eliminates a character no more dramatically needed in his play “The Winter's Tale”)
08/05/2012

YOU LIVE ONLY IN TIME

YOU LIVE ONLY IN TIME

by Fazal Rahman on Wednesday, May 2, 2012 at 11:25pm ·


           ‘Eternal’ is fake.
            Life sans death is no life;
           ‘In time’ is the thing.

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Sibyl failed to ask for eternal youth.  Bad? Yes, under the circumstances. But what if she hadn't? Would it have mitigated her suffering? How would one feel being young when he/she sees his/her dear ones going the natural cycle of life from birth through childhood, youth, old age and death, getting what is due to them from time to time? The veneration of old age? The agonies and ecstasies of life? Would he/she be able to think: “oh, the lucky me! To be quiet unaffected by such ups and downs!” Would he/she feel at home with the newer generations replacing the older ones with whom he/she lived thus far? How far will one be able to put up with an on-looker status, no matter he/she looks an Adonis/Venus? In all probability he/she would sooner than later run the risk of acute depression and cry out: “Give me my normal wear tear back, give me my cross.....!Take away this aging youth from me and give me my own old age...! Give me my death...!”

They say childhood is a blissful time. Yes, when it comes when it should come. Else, it is torture. Was Benjamin Button happy, moving reverse from old age to youth to adolescence to childhood....and an innocent infantile death...? No, he suffered, suffered like hell. Those who grope in the dark alleys of memory loss, tenants of long forsaken tenements with no key, are mistakenly thought of as children reborn... But what are they? Relics of a ghost land lost in shadow worlds, fleeting images of memories pinning them down to their parched existence like nails into the wood of the cross: Santiago gasping: “Ay...!”. Caught in the twilight zone of births and rebirths, Appukkili was always restless, in communion with meanings the world of the sane was denied of. That is why he has to vanish for days and re-emerge from his keeping company for the dead, unscathed by the epidemic or the general grief over it.

Was Oskar Matzerath contented, chose as he did of his own accord, to stop growing at the age of three?  No, he fancied of watching the world of the grownups, from the detached point of view of the self-willed child, but ended up just the opposite: a child with the involved conscience of an overgrown intellectual, the ironies and absurdities of what he saw around him gnawing into his psyche, his very existence. His fate is to end up practically a genome, in a mental institution.

Life, with all its imperfections, is one stream. No theatrical standstills and resumptions, no maudlin protract ions or frozen sharp cuts, no flash backs, no fast forward gimmicks. No matter where it springs, and whereby it flows- it has to reach its confluence... in time. It’s pure Aristotle: it should have a beginning, a middle and an end. It’s a big joke. It’s very serious.

XXXX

( Sibyl of Cumae of the ancient legends, Oskar Matzerath of 'Tin Drum', Benjamin Button of the Story by Fitzgerald and the Movie, Appukkili of O V Vijayan's masterpiece, Santiago from Hemingway are remembered.)